Renovation Slump

I haven't talked or shared much about what is happening at my house due to a secret sorta project that I am hoping to share with you soon.
But
I am right in the middle of major house renovations.
I have builders here re-doing my two bathrooms, and they are also fixing some major leaking issues.
I am in the process of re-decorating the kids bedrooms and playroom, actually I am slowly getting around the whole house room by room.

The house is CHAOS and that is me being polite. When I am in the crazed decorating mode that is pretty much all I do for days. I make sure the kids are fed and that they have clean clothes and that is it, my housework is neglected and the place becomes a mess.
Last weekend I spent 4 straight days working on my daughters bedroom. Sanding walls, filling holes, painting, wallpapering, putting up curtain rails and curtains, it was a massive weekend.

It's hard, really hard. I am here on my own doing everything by myself. My Mum is amazing, she helps out a lot. She is my mentor and motivator.  But otherwise I am on my own.

I have a lot to do.
I am a solo-Mum, a cat owner, a cook, cleaner, housekeeper, shop-owner, renovator, scout & pippins volunteer, taxi, school volunteer, shopper, crafter, I'm sure I have forgotten other things.

It's crazy that I do ALL that and I still look around my house and feel like I am failing because the place is a mess.

Why is it I put so much pressure on myself to have everything perfect and to do so much with my day?
Why do I feel guilty every time I put my feet up and watch TV?

Where does the expectation come from?

I feel like I need to sit back and look at what I HAVE achieved rather than the things I haven't managed to do. I NEED to take time out for myself and my kids.
And as read others blogs and facebook status updates and talk to friends I realise I am NOT the only one who struggles to keep my house in order, and lots of those people aren't doing it on their own.

I need to be more proud of what I am doing and stop trying to live up to impossible expectations.

Food For Thought really.

3rd day = FAIL

OK so my 3rd day of February Blogging failed. I didn't blog or craft yesterday. I had failure after failure.

Failure #1
Going to the bank, as successful as the trip was, because I got everything done that I needed to it zapped ALL my good feelings away. Yesterday at the bank I had to change Mine & Jason's join accounts to just a personal account in my name. To say that was very hard is an understatement, to say that was gut wrenching painful getting closer.

Failure #2
Tried to craft. It was HOT and I had a 'haven't been drinking enough water' headache, so I poured myself a HUGE glass of water set it down on my coaster on my craft table and proceeded to KNOCK it over. Well I haven't cleaned up my desk in about 4 days and I have been crafting A LOT so you can just imagine how much stuff was everywhere. Thank goodness nothing was ruined, a few bits of paper got wet but nothing too serious. Still put me in an even worse mood.

Failure #3
My son, who I believe was very tired. Was incredibly BLERK yesterday afternoon so that really increased the mood I had.

So After the kids had their bath & I had my shower I crawled into bed with a movie and then at 9.30pm turned out the light. So last night instead of blogging & crafting I was sleeping!!

So fingers crossed for a better day today.

First up on the agenda is cleaning up my craft space, and any water I have on the table from now on will be in a water bottle!!!

So to a more happy, more productive day!

Frustration

Well I was determined to get the clock finished today, I had finished the painting and I spent the best part of the day printing out the little quotes and attaching them onto the little rolla-dex type mechanisim, then when I went to place it back in the clock do you think I could? No nothing would make it get back in it's little spot. Nothing. I used a metal kebab skewer and a little fork and pried and tried but nothing. I ended up breaking the mechanisim completley so I did this ... Ok have Lemons make Lemonade ... I pulled the mechanisim out and the clock part found a canvas and thought right I'll fix it and some how attach it to the canvas, have a canvas clock. Um no, turns out it can't be fixed. So now I have 31 quotes about scrapbooking attached to a little rolla-dex type thingy that doesn't work and a broken desk top clock. I am gutted, to say the least. Oh well it's not over yet!!! Watch this space!!!

Failure

I feel so bad today. I started a while ago a 30 Layouts in 30 days challenge. There were 30 different sketches we had to use and I didn't finish. my 30 days came and went but I did not finish the challenge. I HATE not finishing things. I could go on about the fact that my photo printer ran out of ink and I still haven't managed to get any. I could also mention that the last few sketches just weren't speaking to me. But the truth comes down to the fact that I didn't finish and I feel stink about it!!! So my goal is to complete the rest of the sketches within a week once I get my ink for my printer, I have done 14 Layouts so I will have to complete the remaining 16 in 7 days! Think I can do it? I'm determined to!!! I will post here when I start so my 7 days will be monitored!!!
here is the link to the 30 sketches if you are keen to give it a go http://www.creatingkeepsakes.com/images/ftp_images/ck/downloads/04%20SK.pdf
Maybe you will be more successful than me!!!