"I'm the dummy Micky. I'm always the dummy"

If you don't know the Monkee's you may not understand the title of my blog post today. I am a BIG Monkee's fan ... LOVE the show, music etc.
This is how I'm feeling at the moment, like the dummy. And that facial expression that Peter Tork has sums it ALL up.

I'm upset and frustrated for my friends in Christchurch and that I can't help them.

I am still in a major state of Grief from losing Jase, everyday is different and lately I've been really struggling not having him here.

It is coming up to a year since we lost him and I think that is weighing heavily on my mind. Also all this grief from the Christchurch Earthquake has my feelings right on the surface. The fact that Riley's Birthday is just a couple weeks away and it will be his First since Jase died is also a bit emotional.

I think with the grief and devastation of Christchurch makes me feel guilty for feeling depressed about my own stuff too. Yes I lost my husband, but people down there have lost husbands, children, wife's, brothers, sisters, fathers, mothers, sons and daughters. Not only that they have lost homes, possessions, schools, icons, buildings, jobs and livelihoods. I should be counting my blessings.

So yeah, I feel like the dummy.
Lets hope tomorrow is better



p.s. thanks for the pic Mands

Softies for The Children of Christchurch

Lets join our hands and our hearts and make a special softie (handmade soft toy) to be loved by a child who has been affected by the devastating earthquake in Christchurch, New Zealand.

Leave a comment at Kiwi At Heart with your email address and She'll coordinate getting these special toys to their new owners.


Anyone in NZ or around the world is welcome to contribute, maybe you'd like to include a little note of encouragement and love with your softie.

Please pass this button on and pop it on your side bar so we can share the love.

Edited to add ...

For other ways to help the people of Christchurch see below.

Phone 0900 33 200 to make an automatic $20 donation
FreeTXT 'QUAKE' to 555 to donate $5 or FreeTXT 'QUAKE' to 333 to donate $3 from any Vodafone mobile
Donate online at http://redcross.org.nz/
Donate in person at any branch of NZ Post, Kiwibank, ANZ, National Bank, ASB, TSB and BNZ across New Zealand.
Mail a cheque (made payable to New Zealand Red Cross) to: Canterbury Earthquake Appeal, Freepost 232690, PO Box 12-140, Thorndon, Wellington 6144

Love to Christchurch

Yesterday another devastating earthquake hit the city of Christchurch.

This quake measured a smaller 6.3 on the Richter scale - as opposed to the 7.1 of the September quake, the damage caused was worse because the September quake occurred 33 km below the earth's surface and this one occurred a mere 5 km below the surface.. I'm assuming the earth absorbed some of the shock of the September quake and Chch experienced more of the force of it this time and already we have 65 confirmed deaths with many more people trapped in rubble and buildings.

I have very good friends in Christchurch and thankfully they are all safe and out of the city now.


more photos HERE

I sat all night glued to the TV and was dumbstruck at the devastation and ruin.
Prayers, thoughts and best wishes to all in Christchurch.