You know some days I get overwhelmed with my loneliness.
I have been on my own for 3 years and 3 months.
Before Jason came into my life I had flatmates, before that I lived at home with my family. I have never just lived on my own. The kids are here but as much as I love their company I crave that person I can download my day to. Talk about little things to that I wouldn't talk to my kids about.
The thought had crossed my mind about getting a flatmate. But that in itself causes issues. What if that person doesn't fit into our lifestyle. I won't be able to walk from the bathroom to my bedroom with no clothes on anymore. Our open door policy would have to change. But would it be worth doing to not be so lonely?
Then we get into the scary topic of relationships. Am I ready to begin a journey of finding someone new to share my life with? And how on earth do I even begin in that realm!?!?!?
Everything is so scary.
And by scary I mean terrifying.
I know I will get over this feeling .. eventually. Like everything you always have your good moments and your bad moments, and lately I've just been having a bad moment.
Like all storms this one will pass.
2 days ago